Today I was helping a friend through a tough time...as she relayed her loneliness I ached inside at my own. I cannot remain there though...I say often, "I am not alone," because I know it to be true and know that I have an enemy of my soul who wants me to be full of self pity and bitterness. I refuse to stay there....what right do I have to remain there...everything I have been given past and present is a gift, not owed to me, not a right, but truly a gift. The creator sought me out and gave me purpose and it is not to stay self absorbed in my misery. Do I ache and weep? Yes of course! Everyday I wake up and look at my half empty bed and room and it hits me, John is not here anymore...the love of my earthly life. Every time I see an old loving couple, I think, well that isn't me anymore...I am a widow......but......(an important word....) something deep within me reaches out to my Lord, a deep love and hope that is born out of my suffering. Am I not facing reality??? What is reality?.. Most people say it is what is around them, what they see and hear and feel. That....is not reality. There is a heavenly kingdom which is not of this earth and it is truer than anything here. It lifts me to a plane of peace and joy beyond my circumstances, to a higher place with a greater view. This view shows me my King and the opportunity given me to be a light, a comfort, a witness. There is still a world out there that needs to know the love of Jesus Christ. Who better to share than those who know it firsthand....."out of the depths you lifted me..."
He is my life .........and all I know is... He loves you & me with an eternal love.When I am lonely then I need to reach out to those around me, love on them with this love. I feel a deep contentment when I do this. I am going now to prepare dinner tonight for friends........I am excited....I will not be alone.....I know I am never alone.........
